Punishment 12-29

Part of my punishment is to post this on the site.

Misbehavior:

While his mother was in town last week and I started my "time" at the same time and I was grumpy and miserable. I let my attitude loose and I was disrespectful to him, rude,
and very disobedient. I took advantage of that fact that he couldn't "properly"discipline me while his mother was staying with us.
I do feel bad because I did take advantage of the situation. Also when his mom was visiting us they cleaned out our car and it was disgusting.
There were papers, sticky wrappers all over, and food ground into the carpet. They spent 4 hours
cleaning the car (I was cleaning in the house) and then he came and got me and told me how ridiculously unkept our car was and that we would be
"talking" about this and my misbehavior later. He told me how embarrassed he was for his mom to see it like that.

Punishment:
After his mother left, he ordered me to the corner as usual and then over his lap. The spanked me fully clothed for a few minutes and then pulled down my jeans leaving my panties on. I barely got a
warm up and he laid in with a plastic hanger. OMG that stung even through the panties. He then ordered me to the corner again and said to strip. My heart sank. I knew he was
really upset. When he ordered me back to him I was trembling and humbled. Then he motioned for me to lay over his lap again. He came down hard with his hand for a long time
and then with every stroke he scolded me about every offense that had escaped his wrath that week. When he mentioned the van I trembled more and knew he was
still very embarrassed and mad about how his mother had seen the car she had helped us pay for time and again. After about 45 minutes my punishment was over but his lecturing continued.
I rarely cry real tears I just can't. I try so hard but they will not come just because of pain. But when he looked at me with disappointment and pain from what he had just done. I felt a tear
escape.

Aftermath:
After his lecture he sat down and pulled me toward him I burst into tears thinking he would spank me again, but he said no and held me and kissed me. He said I hate doing this but
I will if you show me you need it. I cried in his arms and apologized a many time for how I acted and kissed him. We normally do not make love after anytime soon, but because it had
been a week. It went right there. DHOH likes to keep discipline and sex separate.

Benefits:
I am working on my submission to my husband and I think this spanking really helped. i will never let the van get that dirty again that is for sure. DD has made our lives more harmonious. I feel freed from the guilt and we can move on. Also I think twice about my mood and how I handle it.

God Bless

MJ