Things have been interrupted in the middle again and its irritating me. Not really HOH's fault or mine but life got in the way. I have to say though that I feel firmly planted in my role and that he is in his. So this week will end Boot camp. Although he will reserve the right to institute it at anytime again. A whole lot is not really going to change. I will still be punished (with or without reason) and I will still be answering to him. I am ok with that. In fact I rejoice in that. I want him to continue to push me and help me to grow in ways I can't imagine. So ends this part of the journey, but the larger picture goes on.
I have racked up quite a bit of punishment and HOH has not been able to deal with me properly. the stress of success has caused me to slip in my obedience and respect and will very soon atoning for my sins. Hoh is firm but fair and I appreciate that.
I will continue to be punished everyday until my sentence is complete and though kids and life have gotten in the way> we will be revisiting boot camp weekends soon I am sure.
I am so proud of HOH, he has really come into his own and embraced his role in all this and helped me to understand mine. He IS the head of the house, its not a question or a maybe but a fACT. I will not deny or challenge that. Hold on tight readers I am SURE I will be having a hard last days. Especially when I have been neglecting my duties for computer time.
God Bless
Mandy
Showing posts with label submissive wife. Show all posts
Showing posts with label submissive wife. Show all posts
11 November 2009
02 July 2009
What does it mean to be a Submissive Wife?
I know a lot of feminist activists are going to want to lynch me when I say this but that movement killed femininity. The biggest lie we were ever told as women are the same as men, in the eyes of God we are equal heirs but we are not the same by any stretch of the imagination.
Ok I get it for thousands of years women were the property of men, we were their footstools and little more than baby making machines in the past, but there is a happy medium. We can be feminine, submissive and still maintain self respect and the ability to affect the world around us.
So a lot of people who know me don't live the lifestyle I do: where husband is head of the household instead of a brow beaten shell of a man like current trends would prefer him to be, ask me why? Why would you want to undo years of freedom in order to be a servant to your man and his desires? First of all that is far from true. I am no ones servant, except the Lord of course. I do not sit and pine for him to return and when he does greet him with slippers in one hand and beer in another like some outdated 50's sitcom (no offense to those that do), I have not had to give up my desires and dreams, I am just 2nd in command. I realized a long time ago that a ship can not sail with two captains, a car can not be driven by two people. What if they can't agree which way to go, they can't both be steering because the vehicle would crash and so have many marriages. I didn't want my marriage to be one of them.
Submission isn't about who can one up the other, or a husband having his wife at his beck and call. Its a gift a wife gives her husband on the condition that he always puts her needs ahead of his own and he loves her more than he loves himself. I can also argue that I don't have a choice but we always do. I could choose to serve God and obey his word or I can disobey God and my husband in one shot. God has decreed that husbands are to be the heads of their wives as Christ is the head of the church and we are to obey them in all things. God is at the top of my Chain of Command my husband is an under shepherd just over me. Another reason why I agree with my submission is that my husband will be judged not only for his sins but the sins and the condition of his HOUSEHOLD that God placed him in authority over. How is that fair if he also did not have the means to keep order and peace in his household.
Submission comes from the heart, you can submit your body but if your heart, soul, and mind don't follow you won't progress. One of the most profound moments in my life was when I realized our marriage is an example of what God wanted and if I needed to be spanked in order to maintain proper submission then that is what my husband would do without hesitation. I fell in love with him all over again.
God Bless
Mandy
Ok I get it for thousands of years women were the property of men, we were their footstools and little more than baby making machines in the past, but there is a happy medium. We can be feminine, submissive and still maintain self respect and the ability to affect the world around us.
So a lot of people who know me don't live the lifestyle I do: where husband is head of the household instead of a brow beaten shell of a man like current trends would prefer him to be, ask me why? Why would you want to undo years of freedom in order to be a servant to your man and his desires? First of all that is far from true. I am no ones servant, except the Lord of course. I do not sit and pine for him to return and when he does greet him with slippers in one hand and beer in another like some outdated 50's sitcom (no offense to those that do), I have not had to give up my desires and dreams, I am just 2nd in command. I realized a long time ago that a ship can not sail with two captains, a car can not be driven by two people. What if they can't agree which way to go, they can't both be steering because the vehicle would crash and so have many marriages. I didn't want my marriage to be one of them.
Submission isn't about who can one up the other, or a husband having his wife at his beck and call. Its a gift a wife gives her husband on the condition that he always puts her needs ahead of his own and he loves her more than he loves himself. I can also argue that I don't have a choice but we always do. I could choose to serve God and obey his word or I can disobey God and my husband in one shot. God has decreed that husbands are to be the heads of their wives as Christ is the head of the church and we are to obey them in all things. God is at the top of my Chain of Command my husband is an under shepherd just over me. Another reason why I agree with my submission is that my husband will be judged not only for his sins but the sins and the condition of his HOUSEHOLD that God placed him in authority over. How is that fair if he also did not have the means to keep order and peace in his household.
Submission comes from the heart, you can submit your body but if your heart, soul, and mind don't follow you won't progress. One of the most profound moments in my life was when I realized our marriage is an example of what God wanted and if I needed to be spanked in order to maintain proper submission then that is what my husband would do without hesitation. I fell in love with him all over again.
God Bless
Mandy
01 July 2009
BDSM Vs. CDD
At first glance CDD seems like an acceptable form of BDSM, but there are many differences. Before I talk any further please understand if you are involved in one or both I am not condoning or condemning the practice of BDSM, and those who have played in that arena, your way may be different but I am telling it as I remember from my younger years with my ex husband. The way I see it may not be the way it is, just as in CDD it is different for everyone.
First of all neither are to be forced on to another person, and can only be enjoyed within a safe environment. Having said that I will continue.
I hate bondage part so I will move on to the part I was addicted too and like any addict a taste is enough to make me fall off the wagon so I have to keep my distance, because that is a hard habit to break. I was referring to two parts Dominance/Submission and Sadomaschism.
To begin a little background, I was a 24.7 slave to my husband and I was his footstool. The slave (or sub) is the lowest on the totem pole and is made to do things simply for the sexual pleasure of the master. Punishments are doled out and while they can be severe they are for silly things or for no reason at all. Also these sessions are play, those involved usually have a safe word but it is all for one reason alone to spice up sex.
CDD on the other hand is about a relationship. I hierarchy and meeting of the minds and I am afraid that too many people sometimes focus too hard on the "spanking" part of the relationship. Like my HOH says it is a tool like many as his disposal. When I have earned a punishment from my husband there is no safeword. Its not for fun, or to spice up our love life. It happens for one reason alone: deter me from doing whatever it was that got me over his knee in the first place.
Now I won't lie, there is a certain tingling in those private areas whenever my man asserts his authority and means it, but that is not why I am OTK so to speak.
this is part one of a two part story. Check back soon for updates.
First of all neither are to be forced on to another person, and can only be enjoyed within a safe environment. Having said that I will continue.
I hate bondage part so I will move on to the part I was addicted too and like any addict a taste is enough to make me fall off the wagon so I have to keep my distance, because that is a hard habit to break. I was referring to two parts Dominance/Submission and Sadomaschism.
To begin a little background, I was a 24.7 slave to my husband and I was his footstool. The slave (or sub) is the lowest on the totem pole and is made to do things simply for the sexual pleasure of the master. Punishments are doled out and while they can be severe they are for silly things or for no reason at all. Also these sessions are play, those involved usually have a safe word but it is all for one reason alone to spice up sex.
CDD on the other hand is about a relationship. I hierarchy and meeting of the minds and I am afraid that too many people sometimes focus too hard on the "spanking" part of the relationship. Like my HOH says it is a tool like many as his disposal. When I have earned a punishment from my husband there is no safeword. Its not for fun, or to spice up our love life. It happens for one reason alone: deter me from doing whatever it was that got me over his knee in the first place.
Now I won't lie, there is a certain tingling in those private areas whenever my man asserts his authority and means it, but that is not why I am OTK so to speak.
this is part one of a two part story. Check back soon for updates.
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